Wow...I've just arrived home, and I am so much thrilled. Today was my first czech language lesson. I need to say I was rather afraid, how it will go, what kind of teaching method the teacher is going to use etc. First it was so, that the lessons will be held on Thursdays..so yesterday I thought, OK, I've got time to pay for it, and I've already agreed with my Russian teacher that I shall skip the Thursday class, to attend Czech, but! then I got the information that the classes will be on Wednesday! So in the morning, I started the day with going to the Centre, paying for the course :) Then I went to the office (ehmm a bit late) started to work, had a marvelous lunch with my friend B, while we discussed some details about our trip, that is coming closer and closer (next Sunday ouuuu!) I am a bit...afraid how all that walking will go, whether I was right in deciding that I will use one of my old shoes, still wondering if I should buy another sleeping bag, and praying that the weather will be nice. I am so much looking forward to be in the nature finally, away from everything I know, at an unknow place, with unknown destiniy...I will go there filled with thoughts, and worries, and I hope to return more balanced, determined, having a clearer vision on myself and my life.
I've got a stone..it is nice...rounded stone...perfectly shaped by the water...I found it one day, in Russia, on the shore of the Ladoshkoe Ozero...I picked it up, as I really was fascinated by its perfectness. On that day, I was there with some of my friends from France..a boy, G sat down, looking at the water, while writing his diary, then he took a stick, and wrote something in the sand...later on took a picture of it (the writing was: je t'aime) and sent it to his girlfriend...somehow...this gesture, and all the feelings connected to it got soaked into that stone..since that time...I came back from Russia...I understood the feelings behind that little sentence carved into the sand on that beach...I've been through hilltops and deep valleys, clouds and caves...and that stone is on my shelf..next to my bed...for a while now, I am thinking about this stone...I even wrote a letter on it.."M"...I decided I will take this stone with me for my trip to Spain, and at the end, eased, and calmed...hopefully enriched, I will leave the stone there..and with the stone..I hope to leave the past behind...I tend to have difficulties with letting go...with overcoming memories and the past, and I realized it is something I need to resolve...I need to improve my capabilities of living in the present...so I thought this will be a symbol...if I take this treasure of mine, and let it go...let it continue its journey..its own life, it could be a good lesson for me...This stone came from the far away Russia...and due to my "egoism" my will of wanting to tie it to myself, it could not live its life for the past 5 years...becaue it was precious for me, I wanted to keep it...hidden...to be forever mine...but this way it was just standing there...on my shelf...locked away from sunshine, water, sand...all its natural environment...but next Sunday I'll take it...I'll take it back to where it belongs...to nature...I let it go, after a last embrace, so that it could live the life it always wanted...I'll place it somewhere nice..maybe into a little creek, maybe next to an old bridge, maybe into the shadows of the forest...so that it could continue being shaped...maybe someone will think what I thought "what a lovely, and perfect stone!" and will take it with himself...maybe to another continent...then maybe he will also realize, that he needs to let it go, and will place it somewhere, and maybe one day after a looooong long time, it will be taken back to its home, to the Ladoshkoe Ozero...but it is also possible, that noone will notice the stone, and it will be left there...in the forming, kind hands of nature...maybe one day I'll find it again, but it will not at all be so perfect any more, maybe it will be a bit broken, scretched, or not so perfectly rounded any more, thoght for me it will still be that perfect stone I treasured....for now I cannot know where my precious stone will end up, what paths it will have to travel to get there, what plays the laughing stars are going to draw it into....but I know that it is ready to go, explore, learn and grow...so I'll let it go...with love...
Huhh, I did not even think I will end up telling the story of my precious stone :) I wished to write about my Czech lesson :) but it seems like I got carried away...hmmmm...well...the lesson this evening was just great! Our teacher does not really talk Hungarian, so she was talking in Czech, and I loved to listen to her! It is such a cute, soft, nice language! I am in love with it! And she is a very professional teacher, the whole lesson was very energizing, we could not be "sleeping" for a minute, our attention was completely drawn to her. We all had to answer her questions, were asked to make microdialogues, then learned a bit of grammar, and even sang a song :) I'm a bit sad we only have the class once a week...wish it was at least 3 times, and then soon I could even read books in Czech...BUT! I shall not be impatient, I am very happy I decided to attend this course, and who knows, maybe in a year's time I can write this blog in Czech :) ha ha ha.. :)
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