A small world...

I must admit life can be contradictory..I realized, that I live in a minimized world, where everything is magnified..how strange is that?  That is one reason why I like to travel..because when I do so, my horizon expands, and I see the things, which inhabit my world, from a different angle.

When I was in Russia, I hardly ever used the public transportation, maybe due to the lack of confidence regarding my Russian language, maybe because it did not seem so reliable as what I've known in Budapest, maybe because I wanted to save money.  So I walked a lot.  Believe me, a bus or a subway stop in Russia is a much bigger one than in my hometown.  Suddenly it dawned on me..when at home, doing my daily routine I did not even realize distance..I thought my world, that was bordered by my journey from the flat to school, then to some pubs, was THE WORLD, and obviously in such a limited world, all that happens is of great importance..so I got frustrated, when a bus was 10 minutes late...hardly ever occured to me that I could even walk, and reach my destination in the meantime, instead of waiting and worrying.  But there I was in Russia, and I learned what distance really means.  When I returned, for half a year I did not even use the public transportation, I was so used to walking, I found it funny that the majority of the people get on a tram for such a short distance...it was the first clash between my small world and the greater world..and by now, my small world has taken over again :) I do not walk so much ...But by concentrating too much on our small world, are we not trying to narrow an ocean to a pond?  A pond can be pretty too, but the ocean! with its waves, vastness, with the diversity of its inhabitants...fish of such forms and colours that we are surely not to find in your pond..I think at least once, we need to take a tour to the ocean...just to have the experience, and be able to feel the difference..it can teach us to marvel in the beauties of the universe, it can show us a whole new spectrum of colours, and is able to make us ready to colour our dreams the way we want...

Unfortunately in the pond, some things manage to draw more attention then they deserve...a weed for example...a weed can be a big threat in the pond, but is lost in an ocean..what we should understand, that instead of telling everyone about the weed, reading books on how to get rid of them etc. we should just pluck it...and its gone...the pond is healthy again!  If we take too much time,and dwell too much in how to make it disappear, it might reproduce, and then..the lovely pond is surely in danger...However, plucking the weed, getting rid of it, and cleaning the pond should not make us think that we are in control of everything.  Maybe we were good enough to pluck that weed, because it was of a weak kind..but it does not mean right away that we own the pond, therefore we are in charge, and we will form our pond without any help.  There are times, when I think "hah! I sorted this and that, I am capable of controling everything here, I feel secure..but...not happy"  I need to learn to contemplate the pond...I need to be cautious...I would not want to pluck out a plant that is similar to the weed, maybe it will develop to be a beautiful waterlily, which will enrich my pond..will bring beauty to it...I need to make sure that I do not take over too much, but let the pond live its own life too.. I am not knowledgable enough to know which fish is ok with the fact that my pond has crystal clear water, sand on its shore, a tree hanging over its beach..I am not sure how big the fish will grow....I certainly would not want to keep a shark there, as he would eat all the other fish...there needs to be a balance...I can take care of the animals living in the pond, I can clean its bottom when its needed, but I shall also let the the little creek bring some nice creatures to it, I shall be alert and pluck only the weeds, not the waterlilies...

Often when we own something we do not even know what we own it for...why we need it...we just own it for owning it...not like the little prince..he owned the flower because it was of use to the flower that he owned her.

So my conclusion is, that it is very satisfactory to live in a pond, especially if you have already been to the ocean, then you learn to appreciate your pond, but u'll always have nice memories of the ocean and its diversity.  The pond can only be kept healthy and nice if we let it have its own path of development and do not try to interfere each and every second, either to increase the speed of its prospering, we only need to be there, help it grow, and find joy in contemplating a sunset by its shore..or the moonrays dancing on its surface on a starry night.  We need to take care of the creatures living in our pond...we cannot take them granted, like we would deserve them to be there...we need to work on making them comfortable living there, we need to let them know that we appreciate it that they are there...we need to give them enough space, good food, and talk to them.  Then they will not feel neglected, they will feel precious, and will not want to leave...all creatures, let them be the small bugs, waterlilies, fish, crabs, frogs etc. are unique and true treasures, they all matter, they make up the lovely community of the pond, they make it so beautiful and noisy on a summer night.  If any of them leaves..the pond will not be the same again...it will continue living, but its character will change...and we'll be missing those diamonds we did not treasure enough.  Some creatures come and go, they come to discover how is life in this pond, and once they collected enough experiences they move on to another beautiful pond...we need to be thankful for them..while they were living in our pond, they made it amazing, they contributed to the joy that is settled in one's heart upon contemplating by her pond. 

Hmm...today is a rather philosophical day...maybe the many shades of grey reflected on streets, roofs, clouds stimulated me to dwell so much in my thoughts..but I am very thankful for it, I enjoyed the journey to my pond, and I am thankful for all its plants and animals, for its blueness, for its fresh water, for its gentle waves! 

Truly it was a marvelous day, and it is not over yet! Just about to go to theater with my friends :)

The life collecting small miracles is really a great one, they produce so much energy, it would be enough to erupt a volcano!

Off for today, I realize I am writing more and more...if it continues on like this, I might end up having no readers whatsoever :)